satanic music

I’m 24. I stopped believing in God in elementary school. My parents weren’t much concerned about faith, my father was an atheist. I tried to live conscionably and in line with my own vision of good. In the high school I came across light version of satanism. I started to listen to satanic music. In the beginning it looked like an innocent entertainment, a subculture, but with the passing of time I was getting more and more in. I got fascinated with evil, began to practice meditations, trances, rituals. I got addicted. It lasted four years. Nightmares came, and they were regular, I withdrew from social life to escape into the world of dreams and internet.